Stressssss.

Well hello, so today was a boring but stressfull day. :S yeesh. so choir, it seemed like everyone was asleep or something, then in math, i thought my brain was on overload, plus in english that made my brain explode! Yikes. Then to top it off...jazz was just UGH! no one was able to sing apparently, even some people who have amazing voices and are good at this couldnt get it. and the instrumentalists were having trouble too. :S
And also to add to this stressful post, Cole and his mom have gone to Thunder Bay to check out his school, which he is already accepted to, and to look at the campus and get a tour. Well this sucks for me cuz i applied to Lakehead University, which is 3miles away from his school, and i still havnt been accepted, and he's basically got everything figured out with where he's staying and such. And here i am, not knowing how i'll make enough money over the summer to pay for almost all of the tuition, and where im saying, plus i havnt even been accepted yet!! UGH...im sad to say that im very jealous that everything is going so smoothly for him. and he knows that im jealous. :S
But on a happier note, i have small groups tonight with Linda and the girls, and hopefully that will brighten my spirit.

something to say.

Okay, i know this is my third post today. but i have something to say..well i was reading this book today, called "Faded Denim" about this girl who is a little bit over weight, and all the girls around her including her best friend are thin and beautiful. well this makes her feel really ugly and fat. so her best friend gives her tips on losing pounds. and then she is asked to go to a modeling school(during the summer) for two weeks with this friend, well by the time that happens she has only lost 3pounds and is not happy. so while she's at this school for 2 weeks she is given these tips by all these young models on losing pounds and inches fast. well this works for the girl, but it involves anorexia nervosa and bulimia and over exercising. and all those combined is not good for anyone's body. but at the end of the summer she helps out as a worship leader at a camp and all the campers are disabled, handicapped, or mentally challenged. and this girl realizes that although these young kids have challenges in their lives, they are still happy. and even though she has none of those challenges, she had taken her abilities and her functioning body for granted. and with the help of friends and God, she makes it through her battle, however, her battle was long from over. there was still a constant battle inside even if she was eating right and exercising properly. but knowing that she got through that with God, it makes me feel better about myself, and that if i ever feel like im not good enough, i can turn to God and pray, and i will know that he made me perfect how he wants me to be, and i will try not to change what he has given me. I love God, and i love you Cole...read this and know you have not failed at making me feel perfect. know that it takes more than one person to convince someone of something. :) I love you.

Song For The Broken - Close Your Eyes

We'll scream it loud!
This is our melody; it's time to sing it out
So give us words before we all forget!

This is where I lift my hands and say enough is enough!
So many people are broken and they're not getting up
This is our offering; this is our hope!
This is what we believe in, and we're not giving up

This is our song
So sing out loud a chorus for us.
And it's all too much; I can feel my lungs collapse on me.

Bitter soul why are you weeping tears that fall only for you?

This is our song
So sing out loud a chorus for us
It's all too much; I can feel my lungs collapse on me.

This is my worship; this is my life
To bring hope into this broken world[x4]

This is my worship; this is our worship!

This is our song (We'll scream it loud!)
So sing out loud (Sing out loud!) a chorus for us
It's all too much; I can feel my lungs collapse on me.

New Things

Hey there, starting fresh with my new blog. :) feels better, i think so anyways. Here i am drinking tea, which is quickly cooling off, and i have nothing to say. other than the fact that i am almost out of highschool and starting a new blog was a good idea. i feel that this one suites me better, in the name and url of it. :) i hope you all enjoy my random posts...cuz who knows wat i'll be putting up each day! :P